mommy guilt . . .

Today I have a serious case of Mommy guilt. You ever have those days? The ones when you just don't feel like a good mom or just don't feel like being a good mom. Today is one of those days for me. We are sitting outside enjoying this beautiful weather- the girls are riding bikes, Deacon is throwing rocks in the creek & I'm just sitting idly by . . . watching. Because today, is just one of those days. I'm tired. {I'm also sulking about the fact that my husband will be gone this weekend.} I don't feel like entertaining or challenging them today. I just feel like being lazy and frankly, I'm okay with this. Because I realized something recently that took me along time to grasp- I will be their mother for a lifetime. I have days, months and years to mold, shape, teach, nurture and love my children and I can't feel guilty over one day when I don't feel like doing that. I can't be everything, to everyone, everyday. Realizing this simple truth was a very freeing thing for me. It also reminds me that my strength, wisdom, patience . . . and the list goes on and on, comes only from Jesus & his mercy over us everyday. Don't you think if we were more honest about how difficult parenting is, we would stop competing with each other? Moms need honesty & encouragement, not idols of perfection.
So, I think this afternoon will be a lazy day for us. And who knows, I may just let them play the Wii {gasp!} all afternoon.